9 weeks today yay!
Our lil ones are growing...5 days until our next appt (this Thursday) and per the usual, it cannot get here soon enough!!! Always feels like such a long wait for the appt to get here!
I have been MIA this week as all I have been holding vigil next to G all week...She is hanging in there but struggling...no pain which is most important...we will see what this week brings...
If only beanie and squishy would be able to meet our G...
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Big raspberries
Our lil bambinos are growing!
20 mm each - the size of big raspberries - growing right on schedule for our due date at the end of this summer.
Heartbeats are perfect!
We really are so lucky to still have these weekly check ups on our lil ones. It is so reassuring to see them and their heartbeats and hear the u/s tech marvel at how well they are doing!
Esp when I have those days where I wake up and do not "feel" pregnant...I still pee on a stick to be sure and spend my time counting down the days to our next appt!
We are still beyond elated and cannot even put into words how amazing this is!!!!!!
Here they are - Squishy on the top - Beanie on the bottom.
I have all of our photos together - starting with our blastocysts photos all the way up through every doc appt and ER visit and emergency doc visit and it really is amazing to see how these lil ones have grown! I'll have to post the timeline sooner or later..maybe once we hit 12 weeks and our visits are less frequent.
We are proceeding with taking care of G on hospice...such a sad and hard time this is....prayers prayers prayers....
20 mm each - the size of big raspberries - growing right on schedule for our due date at the end of this summer.
Heartbeats are perfect!
We really are so lucky to still have these weekly check ups on our lil ones. It is so reassuring to see them and their heartbeats and hear the u/s tech marvel at how well they are doing!
Esp when I have those days where I wake up and do not "feel" pregnant...I still pee on a stick to be sure and spend my time counting down the days to our next appt!
We are still beyond elated and cannot even put into words how amazing this is!!!!!!
Here they are - Squishy on the top - Beanie on the bottom.
I have all of our photos together - starting with our blastocysts photos all the way up through every doc appt and ER visit and emergency doc visit and it really is amazing to see how these lil ones have grown! I'll have to post the timeline sooner or later..maybe once we hit 12 weeks and our visits are less frequent.
We are proceeding with taking care of G on hospice...such a sad and hard time this is....prayers prayers prayers....
Monday, January 21, 2013
Grier
Good news or bad news first?
Since this blog is a tale of our bambinos, I'll start with the good news...The bambinos have been doing great!!!!
They are 8 weeks and 1 day old :) The size of raspberries.
Our last u/s last week showed strong heartbeats and perfect growth - yay!!
In 2 days we go back again for another u/s and it cannot come soon enough! Over anxious to see their heart beats and check up on them again...I'll be sure to update with an 8 week 3 day pic after the appt.
On the OHSS front - all has been calm - PAIN FREE for about 48 hours now and no pain meds yay
It is nice to get back to only taking the pills (prenatals, folic acid, etc) that I am taking to help these babies!!!
We have shared our news with more of our family and it is so amazing to bring such great news esp when we have some sad news that follows...
It appears that we are going to have to say goodbye soon to our beloved G. Our Grandmom and the strong matriarch of our family. She has been in the hospital over a week now which was very, very tough when I was sick and in a different hospital because I could not see her for a few days but I have been lucky to spend the past 5 days by her side. It does not appear that she will be getting any better so we will be starting hospice soon. It is always hard to lose someone you love but for some reason it is even harder with G.
She is such an amazing lady. Smart as all hell and sarcastic to boot.
We do plan on using G's maiden name of Grier in one of our bambinos names....which is a tribute to her that I know she would be honored by.
Since this blog is a tale of our bambinos, I'll start with the good news...The bambinos have been doing great!!!!
They are 8 weeks and 1 day old :) The size of raspberries.
Our last u/s last week showed strong heartbeats and perfect growth - yay!!
In 2 days we go back again for another u/s and it cannot come soon enough! Over anxious to see their heart beats and check up on them again...I'll be sure to update with an 8 week 3 day pic after the appt.
On the OHSS front - all has been calm - PAIN FREE for about 48 hours now and no pain meds yay
It is nice to get back to only taking the pills (prenatals, folic acid, etc) that I am taking to help these babies!!!
We have shared our news with more of our family and it is so amazing to bring such great news esp when we have some sad news that follows...
It appears that we are going to have to say goodbye soon to our beloved G. Our Grandmom and the strong matriarch of our family. She has been in the hospital over a week now which was very, very tough when I was sick and in a different hospital because I could not see her for a few days but I have been lucky to spend the past 5 days by her side. It does not appear that she will be getting any better so we will be starting hospice soon. It is always hard to lose someone you love but for some reason it is even harder with G.
She is such an amazing lady. Smart as all hell and sarcastic to boot.
We do plan on using G's maiden name of Grier in one of our bambinos names....which is a tribute to her that I know she would be honored by.
Friday, January 18, 2013
BACK! I hope for good....
I don't even know if I have words for Erin's post below...through tears - slightly hysterical I believe due to exhaustion paired with 6 days of narcotics and pain .. Such a roller coaster this journey continues to be. She has been beyond words amazing the past week.....I still do not think I can put into words my gratitude and non-stop appreciation, thanks, and love for her.
Most importantly, our bambinos are doing great. They are growing and each day we have seen their heartbeats. We have gotten more pics each time and I will be sure to get them up here sometime soon.
We now have another 5 days before our next u/s and the wait, as usual, is killer.
It has been finally concluded that it is severe OHSS which I have speculated for the past month but was never sure as we were never given an exact answer. This past week, after days of pain and honestly, torture, I called my obgyn and asked for his help. He was more than willing to reach out to my RE and attempt to help. I truly believe that this nudge from my OB is what kicked my RE into full steam and truly caused him to step up and help us. We could not take the pain anymore...It was too much.
We now have some answers and medications to help with the next few weeks in hopes that all heals up and goes down quickly.
Praying the u/s Wednesday will show not only 2 strong, healthy babies.
I still feel sick as all hell. The pain is manageable and under control and I am constantly decreasing my dosage which I find reassuring as it is putting less into my bod that could possibly hurt the babies - even though the docs reassure me that none of these meds can hurt them - and also as some slight reassurance that the OHSS is going down and perhaps soon, will be gone. I am trying to get back to normal. Today 15 minutes of light cleaning put me on my ass for 2 hours.
and typically, I like to clean and can do it for 4 hours no problem but my bod is not what it should be right now...
We do have a small baby bump that has appeared the past few days. I am contributing in part to the swelling that OHSS can cause but the lil bump is mostly our bambinos growing so strong!!
I hope to be back sooner rather than later. Until then praying and hoping nonstop!
Most importantly, our bambinos are doing great. They are growing and each day we have seen their heartbeats. We have gotten more pics each time and I will be sure to get them up here sometime soon.
We now have another 5 days before our next u/s and the wait, as usual, is killer.
It has been finally concluded that it is severe OHSS which I have speculated for the past month but was never sure as we were never given an exact answer. This past week, after days of pain and honestly, torture, I called my obgyn and asked for his help. He was more than willing to reach out to my RE and attempt to help. I truly believe that this nudge from my OB is what kicked my RE into full steam and truly caused him to step up and help us. We could not take the pain anymore...It was too much.
We now have some answers and medications to help with the next few weeks in hopes that all heals up and goes down quickly.
Praying the u/s Wednesday will show not only 2 strong, healthy babies.
I still feel sick as all hell. The pain is manageable and under control and I am constantly decreasing my dosage which I find reassuring as it is putting less into my bod that could possibly hurt the babies - even though the docs reassure me that none of these meds can hurt them - and also as some slight reassurance that the OHSS is going down and perhaps soon, will be gone. I am trying to get back to normal. Today 15 minutes of light cleaning put me on my ass for 2 hours.
and typically, I like to clean and can do it for 4 hours no problem but my bod is not what it should be right now...
We do have a small baby bump that has appeared the past few days. I am contributing in part to the swelling that OHSS can cause but the lil bump is mostly our bambinos growing so strong!!
I hope to be back sooner rather than later. Until then praying and hoping nonstop!
superhuman strength
I don't post on here too often, this blog is mostly Mel's "baby". After the week we have had, I feel compelled to write about it and to recognize the amazing strength Mel has had this week.Mel was on bed rest going into last weekend, and on Saturday things took a unexpected turn. Mel began to have excruciating pain in her right side, the same thing that happened a month ago. I won't get into the terrible details, but we were in and out of the hospital, Doctors office, ER for 5 days. Mel didn't sleep for almost 4 days, she could barely move, couldn't eat or drink without getting terribly sick. I have never seen someone in so much pain. I got to a point where I could hardly take her pain anymore. It was one of the toughest weeks I have ever experienced. I must say, going through this, I learned a lot.
1. Mel is the strongest person i know. She made it through this, she handled the pain and uncertainty and fear with such courage. I am so lucky to have such a strong partner. I now know she can get through anything. For most of the week, we didn't even know what was causing this, if she might need surgery, if the babies would be okay, but she kept trucking, minute by minute and hour by hour.
2. I will never take being healthy for granted again. Every morning that I wake up feeling healthy, able to get out of bed and walk around, get in my car, and go to work/school/the grocery store, i will be thankful for it. I have been blessed to have such a healthy life, and i will be thankful for every minute that Mel and the babies are healthy and happy.
3. We are really a family. Mel has obviously been my family for years now, but going through a struggle like this really makes you see your life in a different way. We have created an amazing life for ourselves and we are so lucky to be bringing two healthy wonderful children into our family. Mel and these babies are the most important thing in my life without a doubt, and i am so happy to spend the rest of my life looking after them and doing all I can to make their lives better. I feel like i have more purpose than I ever have before, and i'm so grateful for that.
Thank god Mel is feeling a lot better today than before. I'm hoping with rest she will be back to 100% soon. on another note, out of nowhere she has a little belly now! its hard as a rock, its amazing how cute she looks. I'm looking forward to every day of her pregnancy until our bambinos get here!
1. Mel is the strongest person i know. She made it through this, she handled the pain and uncertainty and fear with such courage. I am so lucky to have such a strong partner. I now know she can get through anything. For most of the week, we didn't even know what was causing this, if she might need surgery, if the babies would be okay, but she kept trucking, minute by minute and hour by hour.
2. I will never take being healthy for granted again. Every morning that I wake up feeling healthy, able to get out of bed and walk around, get in my car, and go to work/school/the grocery store, i will be thankful for it. I have been blessed to have such a healthy life, and i will be thankful for every minute that Mel and the babies are healthy and happy.
3. We are really a family. Mel has obviously been my family for years now, but going through a struggle like this really makes you see your life in a different way. We have created an amazing life for ourselves and we are so lucky to be bringing two healthy wonderful children into our family. Mel and these babies are the most important thing in my life without a doubt, and i am so happy to spend the rest of my life looking after them and doing all I can to make their lives better. I feel like i have more purpose than I ever have before, and i'm so grateful for that.
Thank god Mel is feeling a lot better today than before. I'm hoping with rest she will be back to 100% soon. on another note, out of nowhere she has a little belly now! its hard as a rock, its amazing how cute she looks. I'm looking forward to every day of her pregnancy until our bambinos get here!
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
M.I.A.
Obviously, I have been totally MIA the past few days thanks to hospital stays, meds, sleepless nights, tears, frustrations...the list could go on and on...
The best rest this past weekend merged into terrible right ovary pain - the same as last month which landed me in the hospital for 2 days - so life really has been tough.
Trying to look on the bright side - we have had u/s everyday and the bambinos look amazing. Both measuring perfectly at 7.5 weeks and heart rates are perf (144 and 146) Back to doc again tomorrow morning to see them again and discuss the pain that is still occurring hourly. Another positive is that the bleeding that I had last week has clotted on its own and doc is not worried at all - yay!
Trying to stay positive but its effin hard when your life is consumed with pain...I'll be sure to update in full detail in a few days once back on my feet....
xo
The best rest this past weekend merged into terrible right ovary pain - the same as last month which landed me in the hospital for 2 days - so life really has been tough.
Trying to look on the bright side - we have had u/s everyday and the bambinos look amazing. Both measuring perfectly at 7.5 weeks and heart rates are perf (144 and 146) Back to doc again tomorrow morning to see them again and discuss the pain that is still occurring hourly. Another positive is that the bleeding that I had last week has clotted on its own and doc is not worried at all - yay!
Trying to stay positive but its effin hard when your life is consumed with pain...I'll be sure to update in full detail in a few days once back on my feet....
xo
Saturday, January 12, 2013
Still here....
Well, I'm still here....sitting/laying here....Been on bed rest about 22 hours and already going effin crazy....I do not believe that there is a website that I have not yet perused...Hours of tv...combined with whining and restlessness have pretty much been my life....
Typically, if I had down time I would clean, visit the fam, run errands, or search online for fun baby stuff and make mental notes of stuff I plan to get. Obvi, the first 3 choices are out and the 4th does not seem as appealing right now...too much worry about these bambinos to focus on the positive...
Now I'm off to watch yet another episode of the Walking Dead that is freakin disturbing as all hell and not a show I would watch but it's keeping my mind occupied/disgusted for a solid 43 minutes so I'll take it.
Typically, if I had down time I would clean, visit the fam, run errands, or search online for fun baby stuff and make mental notes of stuff I plan to get. Obvi, the first 3 choices are out and the 4th does not seem as appealing right now...too much worry about these bambinos to focus on the positive...
Now I'm off to watch yet another episode of the Walking Dead that is freakin disturbing as all hell and not a show I would watch but it's keeping my mind occupied/disgusted for a solid 43 minutes so I'll take it.
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